but that was only the first day, first impression which reflects my emotion right when i landed.

life is hard.

well, at least my first week has been very tough, since the very first day when i couldn't get in my flat. and once i got in, it was dirty and hasn't been cleaned properly. i lay on my bed (newly made up, lucky me i brought some bed sheet from home), scared of the dusty room and had very bad sleep. i wondered to myself why did i fight all the way to leave my comfort at home behind to, well, live a not-so-comfy life which i have to do every single thing (except money making) by myself, from grocery shopping to cooking to cleaning to laundry to living with strangers (that's even worse than living alone and be lonely) i remembered thinking that nothing could be harder than living in germany where i couldn't understand a word at first.

i was wrong.

life as an exchange student in germany was definitely ten times easier than this. despite the language, i always had companies, whether friends or host families or thai friends. i have never had to eat alone every single meal like this. and i didn't have to take school very seriously.

this is hard. i'm super lonely and i hope i'll find some friends who might get along well with me soon (aka not those who go to nightclub every other day and get pissed)

i will get through this. i'm getting through this.